Being a Mother

Bonding with Sydney Rose about 2 seconds after she was born.

Bonding with Sydney Rose about 2 seconds after she was born.

Being a mother has been the most important and responsible thing I have done this life time.

As I only managed to get one kid out of my former spouse (a story for another day), I am happy to say that my daughter has exceeded my expectations of motherhood.

It’s an odd thing, the connection between mother and daughter.  As a daughter, and now as a mother.

When I lost my mother at the age of 15, I thought for sure that my life would never be whole again.  But I was wrong.  When my daughter was born, I was at once complete in the universe.  When the nurse placed her on my tummy, and she automatically wrapped her tiny fingers around my forefinger, I knew my life would forever be better because she was in my universe.

I vowed silently, that I would care for this little girl and that I would do my best to make a safe environment for her to grow up in and to thrive in.  I pray to God that I’ve done my best for her.

She has done nothing but made me proud.

The bond I have had with my little girl has enhanced my life and I am a better person because of her.

I love you Sydney Rose!

(Originally posted on Facebook 5/7/11

A Couple of Things…

Pam and Tina, 4th of July

Pam and Tina, 4th of July

(Originally posted on Facebook April 5, 2013)

1. No, I haven’t met Mr. Right yet, but I have met Mr. Married, Mr. Crazy, Mr. I’m-old-enough-to-be-your-father, and, Mr. I’m young-enough-to-be-your-son;  all, by the way, very nice men.

2. I’m a sucker for babies, puppies and Lemon Drop martinis.  Not necessarily in that order.

3. I have recently been invited to a friend’s home for an intimate dinner for eight where dinner will be served by firemen.  Have I mentioned that I love my friends?

4. Looking back and sharing some stories with Sydney from time to time, I know that I am one lucky son-of-a-bitch.  I survived my youth!  I did some really stupid
things…95% of which still makes me smile.

5. My email was hacked this week.  Bastards! Looks like they sent out an email from me to anyone and everyone I have ever emailed or replied to before.  So
they didn’t email to just my Contacts List.  I really tried to send out a warning email to not click on link.  Sorry about that!

6. On the up-side, it was nice to hear back from people I hadn’t corresponded with in years!

7. Okay, now it’s getting ridiculous; I’m not even allowed to speak during the Vampire Diaries.  Like they’re going to miss some trite dialogue that will alter the course of history or something.

8. Is there really such a thing as a GOOD cry?  I’d rather just be happy.

9. The only celebrity that I couldn’t look in the eye when I met him was Gavin Rossdale from Bush.  He was one good looking man!  Which leads  to my next item…

10. Matt Cooper, may he Rest in Peace, made it a quest to get me to say “I love Bush” on-the-air.   Of course he was referring to the band.  He was trying to record it and use it as a  “drop in” during his morning show to be taken completely out of context… Yeah, he was devious that way.  You had to love him!

11. From my “Favorite Facebook Posts” file:   “It’s OK to disagree with me.  I can’t force you to be right.”

This photo is of myself and Tina Bettiol, my old roommate when I lived in Fullerton.  This is in my dad’s backyard in Whittier, CA, on the 4th of July.  I think we were around 23 years old.